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| burning bridges... and renewing others. oh life. i spoke to my dad...who i havent spoken to in ...almost more than a year. it was awesome speaking with him...i wanted to tell him what my life has been like...but i hesitated..didn't want to ruin such a perfect moment. he was doing well physically, spiritually, emotionally...living life well. he thanked me for praying for him...that he knows that the restoration of his health is largely due to my prayers...i cried hearing those words... oh the paradox. that i call family. the lives that my mom and my dad live...are at complete opposite ends in...seriously every single way. i remember having major tensions about that. feeling so torn...and lost. and lonely in such a family ...can i call it a family...? my moms side would leave my dad out ... and ive been forming somewhat of an alliance with my uncle i never really talked to. and now...he's become my best friend in the family. it's pretty awesome. kuz he's super cool. he was always super cool. but he was just always in canada. and really busy with becoming successful. so in moments of such sorrow. such pain. and loss. i find joy. i find peace. and love. i wouldnt have it any other way. | | |
| i need things to turn around...
desperately.
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| the lord is my light and my salvation---
whom shall i fear?
the lord is the stronghold of my life---
of whom shall i be afraid?
when evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh, (to slander me)
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will i be confident.
one thing i ask of the lord,
this is what i seek;
that i may dwell in the house of the lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the lord
and to seek him in his temple.
for in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.
then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will i sacrifice with shouts of
j o y;
i will sing and make music to the lord.
hear my voice when i call, o lord;
be merciful to me and answer me.
my heart says of you, "seek his face!"
your face, lord, i will s e e k.
do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
do not rejct me or forsake me,
o God my Savior.
though my father and mother forsake me,
the lord will receive me.
teach me your way, o lord;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
breathing out violence.
i am still confident of this:
i will see the goodness of the lord
in the land of the living.
w a i t for the lord;
be strong and take heart
and w a i t for the lord.
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| So......i seriously love God...His love always takes my breath away.
i met with cat today, someone who's seriously had a huge influence on my life since i came to know and love Jesus...and it always amazes me to see God using her again and again to encourage me through some of the roughest times of my life. i feel like she just calls me or flies back into my life at the right times and leaves me with some of the words i can only say are from Jesus himself.
i feel so blessed that God sent her today to wipe me of any inkling of doubt i might have started to have due to all of the negative comments ive been getting about my decision. she totally blew all the doubt away and completely encouraged me to push forward and to trust God...that as long as you are right with God and you are trusting him...He will never abandon you and He will take care of you...
and this is what i believe with all my heart and my soul my mind and my spirit...
because ive seen it so many times in my life. even when ive gone wayyy far from Him...had made way too many mistakes to the point where im ashamed to face him...He's never left my side.
this heavenly Father i have. i know knows me more than anyone else in this world knows me. loves me more than anyone else in this world loves me. and cares for me more than anyone else in this world can care for me.
its true, often times His love and His care is often shown to me through the people He has placed in my life...however, ultimately i know that it is really Him...and im so thankful to have a father who i know i can always depend on.
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| i had a beautiful realization. that my friends are painfully beautiful. what did i do to deserve their love? really . nothing. i deserve. nothing. beautiful. He is beautiful. | | |
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