burning bridges...

and renewing others.

oh life.

i spoke to my dad...who i havent spoken to in ...almost more than a year. it was awesome speaking with him...i wanted to tell him what my life has been like...but i hesitated..didn't want to ruin such a perfect moment. he was doing well physically, spiritually, emotionally...living life well. he thanked me for praying for him...that he knows that the restoration of his health is largely due to my prayers...i cried hearing those words...

oh the paradox. that i call family. the lives that my mom and my dad live...are at complete opposite ends in...seriously every single way.

i remember having major tensions about that. feeling so torn...and lost. and lonely in such a family ...can i call it a family...? my moms side would leave my dad out ...

and ive been forming somewhat of an alliance with my uncle i never really talked to. and now...he's become my best friend in the family. it's pretty awesome. kuz he's super cool. he was always super cool. but he was just always in canada. and really busy with becoming successful.

so in moments of such sorrow. such pain. and loss. i find joy. i find peace. and love.

i wouldnt have it any other way.